M$ vs Google

Apple to apple M$ tools and Google tools based on true experience.

http://grammerjack.blogspot.com/2007/10/comparing-microsoft-and-open-source.html

Unfortunately, the salary and benefit package didn't cover in there :(.

JProfiler is good enough

Nice java profiler tool but unfortunately it is not free. One year ago, when I tried to tunning my java application I usually used jvmstats (free profiling tool from Sun) and completed with visualgc to view memory object in graphic (GUI). this tool is very useful and complete enough to tuneup your java application before put it into production environment.

Few days ago, I tried using JProfiler. It's very complex, you could see memory that java object used, CPU usage, thread usage and all of those was breakdown until method level. You could get much information which classes or methods that's consuming very high memory and detected memory leak. Finally you could snapshot the result into file and could open in any JProfiler GUI. Don't missed to try this tool since it still have trial version.

JProfiler
Jvmstat

Telkom bought Sigma

The big local telecommunication company bought the big local ISV (Independent Local Software). Just imagine what happens next ? interesting to wait whether they will be more "bigger" or be more "smaller". As far as I know, no doubt that Telkom is very strong in telecommunication industry will combine with Sigma which has good product in banking and telco industry. Very experienced human resource will mix together with talented young engineer. In modern era telecommunication is very related with Information Technology, maybe this reason makes Telkom movement into IT business. There is the link about this news : http://www.detikinet.com/index.php/detik.read/tahun/2007/bulan/12/tgl/18/time/185934/idnews/868904/idkanal/319

Weekend @ Bandung

Nice weekend at Bandung. Tired, happy, angry are mixed together in that moment. Beginning went to Bandung by my friend car, we arrived afternoon. After check-in in Wisma Purwasari (very bad hotel that I've seen), then following meet up with Dinda's big family. As a new member, I have to introduce my self although I felt a little bit shame.

Together with Dinda's brothers n sisters, we went to Dago Pakar to have some dinner at Lisung. Nice place to share with each other and also could see beautiful view when midnight. Once we finished then we're back to go home while I must stay at poor hotel :(.

Tomorrow, me and Dinda went to marriage party and finishing with taking photo together at Jonas. The afternoon, we're lead up to Jakarta again, the not interested big city I though

The future is always better than the past

Last night, I cried because I didn't wanna hurt anyone. I kept my endless pain inside of my heart. I was regret that I was very weak, could not wake up and seeing the future.

Someone told me that we always must be thinking of the future, forget the past even it's very hard to forget and too sad to remember. Because the future will give you the happiness more than ever and we always will fight with the future, not the past.

I promise , when I feel sad, hurt, painful, or regret, I never do hurt anyone. Let only me that feels those.

Lost communication

I thought it would be better if we lost or stop communication for a while or maybe forever. We won't be able to hurt each other and no more painful feeling in our heart.

What is kind of this feeling ? I've no idea now

Stranger feeling

Sometimes feeling happy, sadness, painful are mixed together. Everyday I feel like that, I don't know what happens. I can only follow and take it time by time. But someday I must change to be better and stronger. I am the man who has to fight and be away from very hard burden.

The past is the past but it's still and always will stuck in my mind in the entire of my life. I know I must be wake up from this but it's too hard for me, even all people that I love is always with me.

Sometimes I feel so regret but sometimes I also feel very happy.

Getting busier

In my new company I am getting busier every day. I like it and enjoy it. Hopefully it makes me better and better. The only disadvantage is rarely meet Dinda :(. Really miss her so much

Junior was dead

Today junior was destroyed. Although I am very sad and regret, but it must to do. I am sorry junior, goodbye.

My House Photos

Finally, I have time to upload my ordinary house. Please check it out, although it's only few photos.
http://picasaweb.google.com/jajangkavita/MyOrdinaryHouse

Big Mistake

I make big mistake today. It's very shame for me and I can't believe it will make hurt someone. I just publish some documents (pictures actually) without any permission from the origin. Then someone angry and also get hurt, and she also says "you break anything". I know how the painful is, because I ever get that.

Every action that already done cannot be rollback, only regret inside of my heart. I would like to say sorry so much from deeper of my heart and I don't want to break our relationship.

The moral that I learn is you must have permission before doing something.

Again and again ...sorry my friend

JMock is painless

Very long ago, I was always struggle to create mock object when doing some unit testing. But now, with jmock all pain will be completely fade away. Nice and interesting stuff, I like playing with that :)

Nice Java-based RSS Client

After very long time as a fan of RSS Feed Reader client, beginning one week ago I switched to RSSOwl client. There are following some reasons that make me happy use it (at least supporting feature that I want) :
1. This application is created using Java under Eclipse RCP
2. Good look and feel
3. Very user friendly (ease to use)
4. Has import and export feature (synchronizing with existing rss list)
5. Supports multipage on tabs (Feed Reader doesn't)

Just try it RSSOwl

Eclipse beats Netbeans in RCP application

I've got bad luck with Netbeans platform when I tried to create Rich Client Platform (RCP) application under that platform. Very lack tutorial, very hard configuration and very difficult to learn about the architecture. No good book that covers all of functionalities, I only found this link, http://platform.netbeans.org/, to create RCP from scratch and finally I was surrender and very struggle.

Now I am very satisfied with Eclipse RCP platform. There are many tutorials, good books, and also very nice design inside this technology. Just following step by step from the book and continues with implementing I feel how easy to create RCP with eclipse. Very simple and very rational able for beginner like me.

I am really like eclipse now, and also always using it in my java development. I think Netbeans needs more enhancement to compete with eclipse.

Which do you choose ?

From Marina to Ragunan

Very pleasant weekend :). Beginning travel to Ancol to go to Pulau Seribu, but unfortunately we was late because the boat already departed. Moving to another plan that was just staying at Pantai Marina, enjoying the view (to be honest very bad view :( ), and having lunch together till sunset. Very nice and tireness.
http://picasaweb.google.com/jajangkavita/MarinaAncol

The second day we was back go to Ancol again, but Dufan was our next destination. Arrived at 12 o'clock then join the queue of Tornado almost 3 hours :(. But very worthy for us because this game very awful. Finishing all games till 8 o'clock at the evening and continue go to home with motorcycle. Hmm more tireness :(
http://picasaweb.google.com/jajangkavita/Dufan

Last day with rest of power go to Ragunan. Spent all day with walking around huge area and enjoy the animals behavior :p. Having lunch together again with Dinda. Hmm the most tireness :( I though.
http://picasaweb.google.com/jajangkavita/RagunanZoo

The important morale that I've got is "Tireness is nothing, Togetherness is important". Many thanks to Dinda who spends all weekend with me and prepares all of those.

Observer pattern

Yesterday, I got stuck with JMS implementation. Why the JMS didn't listen properly to get asynchronous messages. When I take a look inside the code, then I guess the problem in the listener function. I have read some pattern and I know that Observer pattern is more likely Listener. Finally I got good old document stuff about Observer pattter and how to implement in Java. http://www.javaworld.com/javaworld/jw-10-1996/jw-10-howto.html?page=1

Damn it, I found that my real problem is not in Listener functionality but it's my mistake that didn't set the listener with proper class :p

Voiceless Screaming

I'm drowning in sadness
Falling far behind
I feel there is just no way out
Is there anyone there? Where am I?

Insanity and loneliness
Tear my painful heart
Broken heart keeps on going to beat
But it never stops bleeding

I've been waiting for love to come
Someone who wants to touch me inside
Memories of my yesterdays

Careless words and deeds
Masquerade of love
Gotta find my way outta here

I was blinded by dark desire
Over time I've been through it all
I'm crying my share of tears

What can I do
Will I make it through
I must be true to myself

Voiceless Screaming
Calling to me inside of my heart
Voiceless Screaming
Now is the time I got to speak out

Voice of faith, I'm starting to realize
Now my eyes can see
I have gone so far
I'm feeling breath of life

And I'm looking for love to reach
Someone I want to touch deep inside
Light shines on my sight of doubt
Don't be afraid
Move forward one step
Willing mind is what I have found at last

Voiceless Screaming
Calling to me inside of my heart
Voiceless Screaming
Now is the time I got to speak out

Voiceless Screaming
Calling to me inside of my heart
Knockin' on my soul's door
I believe in myself and trust what I do

Voiceless Screaming
Pain of the past still hurts me inside
Knockin' on my soul's door
I climb the stairs that lead me to Heaven

HTML5 will be born

After for long time using HTML4 then it's the right time to learn about brand new of HTML5. The interesting in my though is those syntax is more similar with XML (eXtensible Markup Language) instead of SGML (Standard Generalized Markup Language).

It'd be better at the first time you all take a look some new elements inside HTML5. Please refers to following link. http://www.ibm.com/developerworks/library/x-html5/?ca=dgr-lnxw01NewHTML

Good works from WhatWG to make HTML better than the ancestor ( since 1999 HTML was frozen)

The JMS API Programming Model

Very simple and understanding JMS tutorial for dummies. If you want to learn the basic concept of JMS before implementing it then this http://java.sun.com/products/jms/tutorial/1_3_1-fcs/doc/prog_model.html is good for you. Don't forget to try(coding) and learn(reading) to get deeper knowledge.

Learning JMS API

Java Message Service API is Java Message Oriented Middleware (MOM) API for sending messages two or more clients. Good stuffs is begin from here http://java.sun.com/products/jms/.

Please start with read some documentation and trial the samples, don't forget to agreeing with your application server. There are different how to use the samples among application servers. For example, I have some modifications the source code of samples to comply with JBOSS, because those samples has tested in Sun Java Application Server.

Let's try and share with me.

Unfinished

Oh ! I'm looking at you
Can't control myself
Nothing but pain for me

Wipe your tears from your eyes
Just leave and forget me
No need to be hurt anymore

Go away from me now
I don't know what is love
No need to be hurt anymore

You said, "I miss you so much"
"Everynight thinking of you and facing loneliness"
But when you feel sadness
Never can I stay with you

I'm not the one you need
Close your eyes and forget me
There's nothing I can do anymore
I lost my way

I've been walking in the night of tears
As the night was all falling down
With my love also vanished my vision of you
My heart is cold now

You said, "I need you always."
"Everyday thinking of you and living loneliness."
But when you feel sadness
Never can I stay with you
Can't find my way

No Title

Suddenly the f***ing thought stuck in my head. I felt really painful and hatred. If I could I would like to erase all of old memories of us. I could not life like that, even with or without you. I know you never let me go nowhere and to be honest I do so. You always said that we would together forever and you're always comfort with me, oh it's really so sweet but the reality was different in my mind. Oh my GOD, I would like be crying on her lap in her embrace. Why does it happen to us, especially to her ? She is too good for me, and she is really the best for me. The life is not fair for her.

I have promised I will make you happy forever, I see your smile with my eyes, no matter what happens and no matter with whom you will life. If you will be happy together with me , I will do it anything for you, even it will make me more sickness. As long as you look so happy, it does not matter with me. I am sorry if cannot give more than you want, but I am sure you really deserve for it.

I have one wish for you, just wake me up if this is a dream or just kill me if this is a real. I really hope this is only a dream and it does not make you disappointed.

I'm sorry if your love to me is more than my love to you, someday I will try to be better. Believe in me.

Comment Feature is Now Available For You Again

Very important feedback from radhia when she was trying to submit a comment in my blog. There was an error message and unfortunately I didn't know the real problem. The fastest way to solve is upgrade my blog with new template from blogspot. Finally the result is good enough and I'm satisfied about it. Now, all of you can submit a comment to my posting as many as you want.

I already know that with the new version of template, you can easily to change your blog look-and-feel with blogger template designer. Good ideas and nice works from blogger team, I wait the new feature in the next.

Looking a part-time servant

Almost one week (more or less) I have been living in my house. To be honest I am very comfort to stay in that place. But one thing that I still hate until now, that is cleaning the house :(. Basically I am very lazy to clean and tidy up but in other side I don't like my house seems dirty, especially after rainy. Huh it's really suck. And the fact that I couldn't depend on Dinda, which only comes on weekend, to help me.

Now I am looking a servant to decrease my burden, no matter how many times she will come and work. At least I have one objective, my house always keeps clean and nice after I am back from office. Hopefully I'll find soon with cheap salary :P. If you all want to, just let me know he4x

Happy Birthday Dinda

Today is Dinda's birthday. I give her some surprises in this morning with some gifts. My first gift is special cake from me. The second is phone call by my mother which Dinda wishes. And the last gift is "top secret" :P.

Happy birthday Dinda, do your best in this year and hope to be better in the next and the in the following.

Cleaning up my new house

Last weekend was very tiredness day for me and my wife. We did clean up my new house and prepared some stuff to fill the space. But likely, the space still looks empty , coz I have only small stuff for it :).

Tomorrow night I will be completed move and will begin to stay in my new house. Hopefully I will comfort and happy with that.

Some pictures of my house will be uploaded shortly, due to my camera is still borrowed by my sister

Addicted Moments

One day with special and unforgettable moments. It's all about me and her. Beginning at the morning, we have "sahur" together. Continue with daily activities, We went to office together with my motor cycle :). By end of the work , We meet again to go back to her house. Once we arrived we have "buka" together and finally we have "sholat jamaah".

It was really beautiful moment that I've ever had. How nice it is if I can spent all my time with her like these. Sooner I am sure I will do.

House Hunter (2)

Following my previous posting , I've four house locations as alternative. Those are Mahagoni Park (Bintaro), Graha Cinere, Bukit Griya Cinere and Delta Residence (Ciputat). In this weekend I'll be doing survey again for those last three locations. Finally, I'll create the comparison between them and choose the best house for me.

Note : It's very difficult to find nice house with less price :(

House Hunter

In this weekend I will be looking several houses, all of them located at Bintaro (Graha Bintaro, Graha Raya Bintaro and Mahagoni Park). Hopefully it's not only has nice looking but it also has beautiful inside. Then I will visit Houses Expo at Balai Kartini to get some alternative for buying houses. Come on weekend :p and let's see the result next week.

My best friend birthday

Today is my best friend birthday, but the problem is still she remind me as her best friend. I don't know the right answer and only she knows that. To be honest , I still feel and wish she is my best friend and hopefully she thinks like me also.

Happy birthday my friend, Your will come true along with your life and your time. I really miss u

5nd March 2007

Continue writing again :)

After I was idle for a moment , I am ready again to continue my hobby writing my blog. I thought there was nothing special or interesting moment for me but my finger to be eager for scratching my blog. I wanna share that I've changed my plan in this year, after I canceled to take my Master Program then I want to use my money to buy new house :). I just want to buy nice and minimalist house and the important thing is it's agree with my pocket. If anyone of you has any suggestion, don't hesitate to give it to me. Following links are interesting for me about how to choose good and nice house, thanks to anjar :p http://priandoyo.wordpress.com/tag/tips-membeli-rumah/

For you information, that was my dream and my girlfriend's dream before we will be doing marriage in this year or next year :D. Hopefully all my dream will come true, Amien...

My Journey in UK – Part 9

I was back like child again when I went to Edinburgh Zoo at 2nd January. For your information, this zoo is one of famous International zoo around the world. There are many unique animals collection which other zoo hasn't. I spent around 1 hour in here and I enjoyed with that. Some of animals made me interesting because I haven't seen before like : Penguin, Jaguar, Red Panda and Wolverine. I was surprise when I knew Wolverine is not a wolf but rather look like combination between cat and bear. With good environment, comfortable and safe place, I thought Indonesian zoo should follow to be acknowledge as International zoo. So, If you stay in Edinburgh , don't miss it.

Three days at London was very good. My mission to visit the places that I missed before almost accomplished. I also went to Nottingham to see Robin Hood's castle. There were following places that I've visited :

1. Tour inside Chelsea' stadium. The most expensive price and most visitor for stadium tour that I've visited.

2. Arsenal's stadium (Emirates Stadium). Unfortunately I couldn't get tour ticket because the tour has closed for maintenance.

3. Westminster Abbey

4. Robin Hood's castle (Nottingham). It's very nice place and I thought it looks like a beautiful garden rather than a fortress.

5. Museum People Life (Nottingham)

6. Ye Olde Trip To Yerusalem (Nottingham) is the oldest inn in England

7. National Ice Centre (Nottingham). I could see the ice stadium in England and there were many expert player was playing hockey and ice dance.

8. Botanical Garden (Nottingham). It's very nice place to take a rest and felt clean air for a while.

9. London Tower. The greatest fortress that I've seen. I could know history of United Kingdom and I could learn about UK King/Queen. There are several main building in here, and the best for me is Jewelery House. Inside here, I saw King/Queen chair, crown, armor, horse, weapon, but it didn't allow to take picture.

10. Greenwich is prime zero meridian of the world at Royal Observatory.