The future is always better than the past

Last night, I cried because I didn't wanna hurt anyone. I kept my endless pain inside of my heart. I was regret that I was very weak, could not wake up and seeing the future.

Someone told me that we always must be thinking of the future, forget the past even it's very hard to forget and too sad to remember. Because the future will give you the happiness more than ever and we always will fight with the future, not the past.

I promise , when I feel sad, hurt, painful, or regret, I never do hurt anyone. Let only me that feels those.

Lost communication

I thought it would be better if we lost or stop communication for a while or maybe forever. We won't be able to hurt each other and no more painful feeling in our heart.

What is kind of this feeling ? I've no idea now

Stranger feeling

Sometimes feeling happy, sadness, painful are mixed together. Everyday I feel like that, I don't know what happens. I can only follow and take it time by time. But someday I must change to be better and stronger. I am the man who has to fight and be away from very hard burden.

The past is the past but it's still and always will stuck in my mind in the entire of my life. I know I must be wake up from this but it's too hard for me, even all people that I love is always with me.

Sometimes I feel so regret but sometimes I also feel very happy.

Getting busier

In my new company I am getting busier every day. I like it and enjoy it. Hopefully it makes me better and better. The only disadvantage is rarely meet Dinda :(. Really miss her so much